When I was alive, he never once turned to look at me. His tenderness, his kisses—none belonged to me. I was merely a substitute for his drunkenness. Now that I'm dead, Qin Chu, are you satisfied? —————————————————————— ※ Dual-ending main story, BE and HE seamlessly connected. Those who want HE can stop after it, while those who want BE can read to the very end =w= ※ The inspiration for the plot where the protagonist returns as a spirit after death comes from Chengzi Yu's "Like Love But Not," used with permission. Details and plot development differ. Many thanks to Chengzi Yu for her trust and assistance!! Thanks to the editor too! Also, *fangirl moment* Additional note: This story does not advocate suicide. Though it begins with the protagonist's suicide, readers who finish it will understand the message. Even with depression, we must fight strongly against it and overcome it!